What should i Do Next ??

After the SPM finished, i got a lot of plans including doing a part-time job..However, many plans didn't work out..I don't know why, but every single day my determination 2 do all those things fade away...The only thing that i've done regularly is watching as much movies as i can and playing video games...I was tired of all that, but i don't have any good idea to fill my life with something beneficial or something..My interest of going 2 the gym is also fading away every single minutes in my life..

I am wondering what should i do afterwards..Should i find a girl as my soul mate? Should i make an early study for matriculation syllabus? Should i waste all the time i have from now on till the day i'll get accepted into universities or matriculation doing nothing? All these questions are flying around inside my head..

For now, i guess i am nothing but a useless boy wasting his time doing nothing..But i don't know why, though i am tired of all that, i still can't resist 2 go 2 cinema 2 watch new movies even that i know it doesn't bring any good 2 me..The fun and thrill was felt just when i watched the movies, but after that...Nothing...

Even when i went 2 MARA education fair at Dewan Milenium this afternoon with my friends, i didn't feel the same passion and excitement as when i went 2 STAR education fair at PISA earlier..I guess my poor results in SPM affects me a lot..emotionally and spiritually..I don't know whether this poor results will motivate me 2 work harder or vice versa when in the future...

However, my hope of furthering my studies overseas still burning within my heart..But, i am not sure whether i will be able 2 do it or not..I've dissapointed my parents in SPM and i don't wanna do it again..It's just that i don't know whether i got the potential 2 be a successful person in the challenging future...

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